I like this card, which I found at Vintage Holiday Crafts. I am working very hard on being grateful for all the good things in our life. This is difficult, because this was the worst year ever.
We finally got the autopsy report back last week. My thirty year old son died from heart disease. He went to sleep one night and never woke up. Our family is still having a very difficult time. We never suspected and I'm sure he didn't know that his heart was bad either. I worry that it could have been prevented, but I have to believe that when it is time............... I know it will get easier, but it will never be back to normal. And I will never be fine.
There have been things that have helped. Reading and writing on Facebook has actually been very helpful. I hardly even checked my account until recently. It helps to be in touch with his friends. And I have found a very good book. It was written by Brooke Noel and is called "I Wasn't Ready to Say Goodbye". I have been trying to read other things too, but my attention span isn't great lately.
I have started thinking about Christmas. Having the young children around will make things better. Finn and Tess will each decorate their own little tree at our house this year, so that will be fun.
Dear Scarlette,
ReplyDeleteI know this holiday season will pass by in a blur for you and for your family. Let it. Take the time you need to grieve. Next year will be better. You will never be able to go back to what you once had, but, you can get back to something good. It has been 9 months since my brother died, and I thought I would never be able to talk about him without crying. But, just this week I was able to actually laugh over a memory of him. I miss him terribly, and know I will always have that empty spot in my heart. But, time does begin to let you heal. Please know that I am here. I send you a big hug. Much Love, Fleur
Being grateful during a loss is dreadful......but, it also helps to heal. Hoping and wishing for you a bountiful Thanksgiving to help heal your sad heart. Happy Thanksgiving to you and yours!
ReplyDeleteOh Sandi I am so, so sorry to hear about your gorgeous boy. You have always been one of the voices I have looked to, and been pleased to hear from when I needed strength, and now when it is my turn to return the favour I hardly know what to say, other than that my heart goes out to you. Be as brave as you can be Sweetheart and when you feel like falling apart, do it: to this a Mom will always be entitled.x
ReplyDeleteSandi, A mother's loss can never be completely healed. Take all the time you have to, to get your bearings. Having young ones around, especially at Christmas does let us realize that life continues no matter how much it feels to us that it cannot possibly go on as usual. I pray for you that healing will continue and the Christmas season will hold some joy through your pain. Hugs for you and your family, Pam
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